NICKAAAAY!

ehhhhhh

definitely never on this anymore .

twitter.com/AYEnikkaay

just when i thought..

things were gonna get better. i guess not..

DIANAAAAAAAA :(

I miss you already. COME BACK! :(

Unconditional Love.

I want to punch you in the face, tell you how much I hate you, and tell you that I never wanna speak to you again. But I know if I were to do that, I’d be lying. I don’t hate you because I love you. And I wanna talk to you because your voice is the one that soothes me. I feel like if I were to push you away, I’d just pull you back. I never loved someone as much as I love you, but then again, I’ve never been hurt sooooo badly as much as you just hurt me.

A looong time ago you asked me what would I do if you ever cheated on me and I remember I would go off about how I would never talk to you, but then I would stop and correct myself. I then told you I would never leave you. I didn’t know I was that serious about it till the other night. When you told me what had happened, I was more concerned about our relationship than anything else. It’s like I forgot about everything you just said and the only thing that came to my mind was, “Are things gonna be okay between us?” I couldn’t believe it. Even when I saw you, I was so hurt. But I knew that the moment I saw your face, I still wanted you. I wanted to shoot myself in the head because I couldn’t believe what the fuck I was thinking! I was so hurt, but its like I still needed your comfort. And I know exactly why. When something goes wrong, you’re the first person I run to. And that’s exactly how I felt when you told me.. I still needed the warmth from your hugs and your kisses to comfort me. I didn’t realize how much I TRULY loved you till that night. And I don’t know if its because Im gullible or because I really do love you, but for some reason, I believe that things are going to be better than before, and that you won’t ever hurt me again. I don’t regret any of the decisions I made, and I don’t find myself stupid. I don’t want you to do this again because I know I need you and I feel like if this happens again, I don’t have any other choice but to leave and walk away from someone that I need in my life. I know you have a lot to prove and I know you still have to earn my trust back. Right now, I just need time and I know God will continue to give me the strength to get through this. I still mean everything that I’ve ever said to you. “No matter what happens between us, together or not, I’ll ALWAYS love you.” I love you soo much, even though I wish I didn’t.

Have I ..

ever told you that I fell in love with U-swirl yogurt?

Have I ever told you how annoying AND rude people are these days?

Have I ever told you how much having a period sucks?

Have I ever told you how tiring school is?

Have I ever told you how out of shape I am?

Have I ever told you how much I want my long hair back?

& Last but not least, Have I ever told you that my birthday is in 7 days?! :D

Well now you know. September 15th is thee day =]